Coveting Your Prayers

If you've been reading, you'll be familiar with the fact that I am going to She Speaks. I am overwhelmed at this point. There just feels like there is so much to do. I've opted to do a combination between the speakers and writer's track. My book proposal and my two talks are in various pieces of done (or undone) and scattered across the desk, the book bag, various places on the computer, and the floor.

For the book proposal, you have to include a chapter outline and three sample chapters. I originally did the chapter outline in bullets but then spoke with someone and they suggested short paragraphs. That has been redone.

And then I had to pick three out of the twelve chapters on my heart to write about. They are all important, but I am thankful that I only have to have three completed. They do not have to be in order, so I decided to go with the ones that I could not get off my brain.

Sigh. One of them happens to be what I consider one of the more challenging. (Maybe that's why I couldn't get it out of my head.) It's Hope Deferred: When Life Doesn't Measure Up. It is something that gets me where I struggle. How do you keep hoping when things don't seem to come to fruition? How does that impact your relationship with God.

So, I've gotten that one finished -- I think. It's a mix of personal experience, the story of Abraham, Sarah, and Isaac as well as "the hope deferred" verse (Proverbs 13:12). It's tied up with Psalm 42. I feel like it covers a lot of territory.

But just seeing it all written out makes me feel a bit vulnerable . . . . Do I really want to give this piece of my heart to an editor? While I feel vulnerable about some of the other pieces as well, this one seems very big tonight.

I don't typically ask for prayers here, but I thought I would tonight:

• Pray that the sense of vulnerability wouldn't get in the way if that is what God wants me to share.
• Pray for my time management.
• Pray for the ability to write and prepare well over the next few days.
• Mostly pray that God would teach me as I prepare.

Blessings!